2012 have been a really tough year for me, gone through up and downs, heartbreaks and things i think i should not be involved in.
This two months have been horrible for me, im drowning in a sea of sadness. Sadness that others can never understand me or be in my position.
I used to tell people, " Time will pass, everything will be better ". After experiencing myself, no. It doesnt works that way. Sometimes, time don't help. Even though two months pass, i feel like im still stuck in that situation.Same time.Same moment.
Absence do makes your heart grow fonder. Never ever realise that when i had you around, only when you left me, i start feeling that pinch in my heart. Uncontactable. I hate being alone. Always thought i have a heart of a soldier, but no.
I cry when im alone, cry when i walk home, sometimes, even in class.
Waking up in the middle of the night with a heavy heart, waking up in the morning thinking if everything was just a really long dream.
I need someone to rescue me from this sea, not just anybody but it has to be you, w.
Many people around me have been trying to help me, i appreciated it but it doesnt help me because, its not any small problem.
Still, i will be waiting for you to be out. I will be here.
Stay strong, willy.
Disappointed many and i am sorry. You know who you are if you are reading this.
Whatever i am saying now, may sound stupid and ridiculous but when you are at your lowest, no words is possible to translate to the other parties on how you are feeling.
Another 2 days, it will be 2013. Brand new year, brand new start.
Please let me sort out my feelings, let me be stronger and well... a better life? Had enough of such nonsensical troubles and problems. Let me learn my lesson well.
Happy new year xx
