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Been through a night where my heart aches so badly and I could literally feel sharp knifes stabbing my heart continuously. For hours, to be precise, 5 hours. Crying till I feel so suffocated and couldn't stop.
You only realize the pain when the person leave you, I never used to understand such pain but I do now. Should I call this, karma? Never believe in such things but then again, I do now.
I'm blessed, I have my bestfriend.
Came up to my room at 5am to give me a hug and told me to stay strong. Just less than a 10 mins meet, but I feel a lot better. Guess what, I was in my sport tee and a boxer, hair in a mess and really swollen eyes. ( Hey what do you expect, i cried for straight five hours )
Was in such horrible state, I wouldn't even dare to look myself in the mirror but my bestf can still tell me I look fine.
You know, this is actually why I love my bestfriend so much, not judging me when I'm bare face. Being there when I'm at my lowest point. Accompanying me to unknown places to get my things done. Waiting for me for hours while I do my things. Always surprising me with my favorite gongcha, Starbucks, cupcakes, smoothie, chocolates and etc.
It's hard to find a true friend who will always be there for you. There are all this pretenders around you but in that crowd, i am sure you will be able to find the perfect person who is true to you. No masks, no pretends, no lies, just a person who is able to accept every single flaws of you. Are you able to be that person?

Without my bestf, I would just be all alone, all by myself when I'm down.
I'm feeling better, thoughts still run through my mind every second but I'm trying to control my emotion. No matter how much I cry, nothing will help my situation so all I can do is to pray and be strong myself.
Shall not be taken down by a small setback, heart of a soldier.
Will be praying every night. For once, god please help me.

It's 2.51am, school in a few hours, gotta catch some sleep now.
Goodnight my soldier
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